Terminal Velocity
"Belief in anything is simply a way of labeling the mystery." Chogyam Trungpa. (Continuously Morphing List of Quotes: APRIL 08; November, 2009, July 2010, June 2017)
In Kyoto, the Mikosan was four hundred years
of life history revealed in dance, the echo of
dynasty and culture, eternal beauty.
In Tepoztlan, Mexicans move with their history
embedded in wrinkled faces, in costumes
reflecting humor at servitude they endured,
in sauces for the plain food surviving from
ancestors’ lives, in their horses they ride with
pride, beasts whose ancestry parallels their own.
My German stock mingles with Tibetan and Zen
quantum vibrations, songs, sayings, tales, stories
etched into axions, ringing on to eternity, part of
Frank Zappa’s single note that is the universe.
…coming on…
a vowel movement…
when you gotta go, you gotta go.
Life’s like that…it has to come out.
Here it comes…ladies, hike your skirts!
Residue
All that’s left of yesterday is memory,
maybe a photo or two stuck in a drawer
and forgotten.
I have scars to prove I worked,
a few reviews of roles I played in plays,
of books I published, residue of life I lived.
I’m still here, a footnote of myself, still writing,
a stone rolling downhill with momentum,
natural continuum until it stops, the only question
left is “So what?”, swept away like all the rest,
history a wisp of smoke that lingers in the air,
Horton hears a Who.
In the cosmic quantum maelstrom, the earth
is merely punctuation.
Period.
He wrote of three stages of life;
innocence, experience, and return to innocence.
Return to innocence is because of experience.
What Blake didn’t say is, if you don’t heed experience,
if you go down the wrong path, (because we’re all on one),
you don’t return to innocence…
you continue on the wrong path.
Give Blake a break, he was a mystic…he did, however,
draw a picture…many of them.
Innocence, then experience…what kind?
All of them.
You have to make a choice.
The road less traveled?
Up to you.
No instruction manual,
just a lot of clues.
Believe me or not, all the clues are there,
even in the Bible.
It’s a mission impossible, which you have
no choice but to accept.
Door number one or door number two?
I’m sure you wish you knew,
but, still, you have to choose.
“By their fruits you shall know them.”
There’s one for you.
I write because that’s what I do.
That’s the only reason.
If there was another reason,
someone would have noticed me by now,
maybe a patron…I’d be famous then.
I still like reading what I wrote before…
not so much now at the end of this thing,
what do you call it?
Oh yeah, life, the thing that keeps happening
until it doesn’t, I remember…until I don’t.
It’s been like painting a wall and the paint
is running out, so you add thinner so you can
complete the job The paint doesn’t cover
as well, but you keep going because that’s
what you do, like breathing, but the lungs don’t
work so well, so you’re on oxygen, and you’d
like to make love because you remember how
great it was, but you don’t feel the passion.
Things start to clear because of less distraction.
And you begin to see people, those you know and
others you see in the street, in a different way, like,
what’s wrong with them? But then you realize you
used to be more that way. You’re not, not because
you learned anything at all, but because you forgot
everything you knew, a kind of blissful ignorance,
maybe, or even a childlike innocence, that’s better…
a second childhood, sure, gurgling words to myself.
So, no, I never took writing seriously…I just wrote
a lot, that’s all.
“So what?” you might say,
as I do now.
What won’t be long?
You’ll see…or will you?
Is it happening right now?
Can you see the signs?
Is anything really normal?
Is your life going along as usual, the way
it was before the last eight years?
Maybe it’s happening in slow motion,
a frog in water that is slowly heating?
What is it, you say?
Has the truth been hidden for so long,
eons, that if you saw it, you wouldn’t
believe it?
Oh no, it doesn’t matter what I think.
The only thing that matters is what you see.
You see? Do you agree?
It’s time to wake up, reboot, get real,
whether you like it or not, because
the truth is unavoidable,
eventually, like now.
“It is precisely in unconscious involuntary
manifestations that all evil lies. You do no
yet understand and cannot imagine all the
results of this evil. But the time will come
when you will understand. “ G.I. Gurdjieff
1916.
Truth whorls in random hunger for itself.
A pansy Republic sweats the small stuff.
Yoke replica on the wall as reminder.
Minor-league coercion no longer a problem.
Enough cemeteries defend greed.
Purgatory bus stop notwithstanding.
Free peripheral apparitions.
Orchid embryo dissemination tactic.
Everlasting numeric hollowness…think conflict.
I told you, but your fedora covers your ears.
My impudence is a determined disaster.
I don’t miss America.
Vibes
Vibes are quantum fluctuations at the Planct level
in the scaleable universe, perceived by the senses.
Humor
Jokes trigger sub-atomic explosions at the Planct scale
of the universe.
Just guessing.
Penrose cyclical universe why not going away
To make an informed choice between politicians,
you have to take into account their crack record.
If they have a crack record, probably not a good pick…
Hunter Biden, for example.
Cory Booker…he did talk for twenty five hours….
suspicious.
Drug testing should be mandatory for politicians.
Gotta figure out why the Dems (and RINOS)
are so crazy…must be addicted to something.
Not many can say they stand on their record.
Not many have a record to stand on.
The deep state has been on a binge
for the last four years.
They’re ripe for a crack up.
The Jones is a killer.
Longing for space, from which existence arises,
our home that we left on our adventure of life.
A romantic yearning knowing life’s evanescence,
seeing behind the curtain where no one is.
I know my work is almost done this life.
I’ll come back if causes and conditions arise
again the way they did this time.
In an infinite universe, everything is possible
and likely, eventually.
As my teacher said:
“You’ll have plenty of time to rest when you’re dead.”
And the contract (karma) has an infinity clause.
An easy daily routine leading to many hours
in bed and lots of sleep, no worries about the
ort cloud or the cosmic bubble or what will
happen on the earth, in quantum time, the
all-time they haven’t quite yet discovered
but are getting very suspicious of their own
models, who knows? Maybe they’ll figure
out what the Egyptians and Mayans…let alone
extra-terrestrials…(talk about reinventing the
wheel) already knew long ago. We ‘re chimps
looking in the mirror and thinking we’re
handsome. I love writing about this stuff
because these words, not me, will last forever.
There are things that are timeless,
like the truth.
Going to Mars is not evolution.
Going to Mars is monkey business.
Going to Mars is the same old Homosap.
Going to Mars is the same old shit.
For Europeans coming to North America,
it was like going to Mars, except the prospects
were more promising.
Those people didn’t do anything differently.
Those people didn’t learn anything new.
Those people tried to recreate the world they knew.
For the people that go to Mars, the same will be true.
The means to self evolve has been known and practiced
since the time of Buddha and before.
Why look for the truth somewhere else?
It’s an ego problem.
It’s always an ego problem.
Arms race,
Space race…why does the Homosap always
get himself into situations that are never resolved
and always unsatisfactory?
Evolution is not more, better, best.
Evolution is not being the best at something.
Evolution laughs at a monkey reaching for another banana.
Music I’m listening to…
thunder approaching
early for rain…the seasons
even here have been a bit off…
I bit off all I could chew…
Chewy Chewy Sugar Sugar
the residuals aren’t that great.
Black bubble gum.
Snow White only drinks albino blood.
I didn’t make that up.
Why do Americans delight in horror shows?
Hot. I’m hot…I’m writing about it…
if you read it, maybe you’ll get hot too…
heat…not unbearable, just a little too much,
which is unbearable…boring….anything that
takes too big a percentage of one’s awareness,
like my friend who had rheumatoid arthritis
for twenty years…twenty years no relief from
pain…very boring…in dramatic fashion, he
burned himself up in his trailer one night…not
boring…we all feel relief that I didn’t make that
story any longer.
Just then, no lie, it started to rain.
That’s it…that’s all…good luck.
I write like I think I know something,
good luck with that.
Maybe Musk knows more, wants to go
to Mars, good luck to him.
What do you know, what do you think you know?
I really am curious…
I mean, I see what people do…I don’t know why…
what goes on in their minds?
Why would anyone go to war, for example?
If you’re attacked, ok, I can see that…but the USA
hasn’t been attacked since 1941, and look at all the wars
the USA has been in since then?
If you believe in something, at least you feel you’re not lost.
That fear is what all religions and political philosophies
build their kingdoms on…don’t you see?
No, they don’t…so they go on in relative security even if
their beliefs don’t exactly match what they’re seeing…they
just look away from what doesn’t match “themselves” and
get by get along get lost in the funhouse ‘till it’s over.
Good luck.
I have a leaky bladder. For now, I soak
Wake up….bathroom…aspirin-shower
Two fans hot the top floor concrete roof
bakes in the sun good passive solar but
not when you don’t need it it gets cool
enough to sleep later the whole month
and part of June then rain comes and
the flowers come and the heat is forgotten
and then there’s only one fan.
Where I am…music of pipes being hit by hammers
chorus of machines whine together singing progress…
another civilization maybe…one would be nice…
post apocalyptic steam punk…if there is such a thing…
hard to tell with all the verisimilitude…can’t tell what’s
what without a program if you think that gives you a
handle…hasn’t been a blue sky in years…I know one
thing…I can keep a secret.
One could probably go anywhere in the world
Nothing rears its ugly head again,
wait a minute….that can’t be right.
Seer sucker…
Yes, I can see your future and it doesn’t
look good….maybe get down on all fours
and try to make it as a dog?
You can lead a country to sanity,
but you can’t make it think.
Morning glory vines and lavender adorn
the old brick wall. Sitting in the quiet of
the garden, taking in through the senses,
breathing out a sigh of relief.
Just because the Director says: “Action!”
it doesn’t mean you have to do anything.
What does a poet write?
( lots of words. )
What does the reader read?
“Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah blah, The End.”
…except for the occasional
mind mine
that explodes
into a new knowledge of reality.
It’s worth it.
Who do we have to thank?
Who do we have to blame?
I’m my own Boss.
I don’t boss myself around…
…I used to… how do you think
I lived this long?
I had to play by some rules.
Others I could avoid.
So, today again, always something
seemingly new, disguised sameness,
but I’m old and keep forgetting, so
I can’t complain because I can’t remember.
I wish the same joy for you.
Sorry, everybody’s not a winner…we all
have a finish line thanks for playing.
Participation trophies are so degrading.
Bruce Jenner was the greatest athlete
in the world.
The best he could come up with after that
was to change his sex. Let that sink in.
It took some balls to do that.
I find the whole thing indicative of the
human predicament.
It all boils down to: “What to do?”
…the basis for all human comedy, drama
and stupidity.
Have I left anything out?
Only the dogs: it’s today again for them too.