Hamster Wheel In A Cage

" I've got to get my laundry done, walk the dog,

Oh yes, the party is today…what time was it?

4 o’clock, that’s right…I wonder if the Smiths

will be there? Probably…and, of course they’ll 

talk about politics. Why do they hate Trump so

much? I point out the good things he’s done, but

they won’t even listen. Just saying his name seems 

to set them off…well, I’ll just try to steer the 

conversation away…I wonder how Tommy is

doing? Such a smart kid…I wonder why he’s 

having so much trouble in school…they talk about

sending him to a military academy…I wonder if

that’s happened yet. Was I supposed to bring

something? I’ll pick up a bottle of wine just in

case. I don’t feel like going, but I guess it will

be fun…Barbara is such a good cook, and Frank

makes a mean barbecue. The weather looks good

so it probably won’t rain. I don’t know if Bill will

remember about the party, so I’ll send him a 

WhatsApp to remind him not to be late getting 

home from work…he’s more absent minded than

I am…I wish he’d shave his beard…it’s so

disgusting…it almost makes me not want to have

sex with him…I’ll put up with it a little longer,

I guess. I hate to nag him, but sometimes I can’t 

help it. What can I do? Maybe I’ll promise him

that sex thing he always wants that I don’t like

to do, or, let him buy the snowmobile that we can’t 

afford…that raise didn’t come through yet…I’ll

remind him to ask his Boss again…that’s not

nagging, is it? Oops! Did I turn off the coffee 

maker? Yes, I did…for once. I’m getting better

at that. Should I go shopping? What do we need?

Not much…I’ll go shopping tomorrow…yes,

shopping can wait…I’d better make a list. Let’s 

see…what should I make for dinner tomorrow?

I wish I didn’t have to cook…Bill’s nice about

eating what I make, and he likes it most of the

time….I wish he liked liver and bacon, my 

favorite meal…he hates it. He’s going on that

business trip next week…I’ll make it when he’s 

gone. I trust him…I know he’s not having an 

affair…I know he’s not that kind of guy…I wish

he didn’t bore me so much, but I guess I should

be thankful that that’s the worst that he is…Lilly

left her husband last week. She’s a mess right now…

I should invite her over, try to make her feel better…

she’s a good friend, but I’m always so busy! I’ll

try to make time for her next week…Thursday might

be good…I’ll write myself a note so I don’t forget.”

Maybe I should forget about the whole thing.