Improbable Paradise

It took a long time

to get here...

flowers on the table,

waiting for hamburger 

and fries...

waiting for the rain...

waiting to meet the

inevitable traveler...

inevitable sky bombs

of celebration, 

predictable yet 

surprising...this

accidental paradise

I never thought I'd find.

Maybe it was a planned 

accident...I'll never know

and no one can tell me...

my struggle just let go.

I let loose the rope, the fear

of death, long ago, only 

knowing holding on was

not the way to go.

Most of my life floating

between disasters and

revelations, not knowing

where the wind would 

take me, only sensing

the path in moments of 

now that led me here

ten years ago.

Now i'm here, wanting

no where else to go.

How long will I stay?

How long do I have at all

'til an invisible wind 

blows me to the next

unfathomable destination?

One thing is certain: 

everything changes

except the heart always

pointing in the right direction.